Compassion in the desert
Hi! I'm still pretty new to the Phoenix/Tempe area, moving here to live with my life partner, and I have to say that there is much I love about the area and people here. It is a nice place and as I heal more, I hope to get out and do more juggling than I have.
But I am a schizoaffective person and the main thing I experience are "synchronicities." This can be difficult to explain, but Carl Jung describes the phenomenon very well, and these manifest in ways such as how I might get a notification or someone is saying something while I'm writing that I freely associate with which leads to me changing my mind about what I'm writing.
They can get fairly complex, but what I am experiencing feels like "God" is telling me something, and what I can say about "God" in public that is different here than a lotta other places I've lived, but similar to North Carolina and Eastern Tennessee, is that when I am in public, "God" has a lot to say about *what* I'm doing, but not much in terms of actual *help.*
By that, y'know, I have some legal addictions that have been clearly noticed by the local population, and with my robust social media presence, people recognize me. So they say things, to their friends, on the phone, some people yell at their kids to yell at me, y'know, I *overhear* a *lot* in terms of criticism, but I still only really know my life partner, who is really into solitude, and there's problems in paradise, so I'm hurting inside, and all it feels like I feel in *this* corner of this country is scorn.
And I understand culture is our operating system, and throughout history, desert cultures grow naturally strict as Drought IS the fourth horseman of the apocalypse that cuts all life in an area down, but all I want to say, and not for my sake, is that finding the will to be more compassionate to those around you as that is what will help more than pushing another so they toe the line better.
And this is the modern day, so this ain't totalism. I have met many people in passing that were swell souls. I also hear a lotta comments that make me feel worse inside, which only makes things harder. Be as light is, and illuminate the world with your warmth, regardless the temperature outside. Much love! Thank you for being awesome!
But I am a schizoaffective person and the main thing I experience are "synchronicities." This can be difficult to explain, but Carl Jung describes the phenomenon very well, and these manifest in ways such as how I might get a notification or someone is saying something while I'm writing that I freely associate with which leads to me changing my mind about what I'm writing.
They can get fairly complex, but what I am experiencing feels like "God" is telling me something, and what I can say about "God" in public that is different here than a lotta other places I've lived, but similar to North Carolina and Eastern Tennessee, is that when I am in public, "God" has a lot to say about *what* I'm doing, but not much in terms of actual *help.*
By that, y'know, I have some legal addictions that have been clearly noticed by the local population, and with my robust social media presence, people recognize me. So they say things, to their friends, on the phone, some people yell at their kids to yell at me, y'know, I *overhear* a *lot* in terms of criticism, but I still only really know my life partner, who is really into solitude, and there's problems in paradise, so I'm hurting inside, and all it feels like I feel in *this* corner of this country is scorn.
And I understand culture is our operating system, and throughout history, desert cultures grow naturally strict as Drought IS the fourth horseman of the apocalypse that cuts all life in an area down, but all I want to say, and not for my sake, is that finding the will to be more compassionate to those around you as that is what will help more than pushing another so they toe the line better.
And this is the modern day, so this ain't totalism. I have met many people in passing that were swell souls. I also hear a lotta comments that make me feel worse inside, which only makes things harder. Be as light is, and illuminate the world with your warmth, regardless the temperature outside. Much love! Thank you for being awesome!