Oh, you didn't like that? YOU'RE PREJUDICED but I just say that to get the robotic animals to skip this post
Great. Got told by my random word generator to buy offbrand Walmart Benadryl to stimfap again; simply put, I'm schizoaffective. "Discharge," "buy," "verisimilitude," are some examples of commands/God's argument to me for why I have to, being this Mockingbird I am in our police state. I didn't want to go. I didn't want to pedal there. I fought myself, and at one point, after half a cigarette, I had the strength to go back. Then a woman in a hurry cuts me off and honks at me/the other driver while performing an illegal maneuver at speed. Now I have no chance.
This is something they did in the cult/secret government reprogramming school; put me under fear in sudden jolting moments. It's similar to what Byoomth does with me *at times.* That's one of the bigger things that fucks with my head, in that it's not a set thing he's doing. It's modular, and has evolved through several epochs of manipulation.
I have NO IDEA what reality is, but after getting arrested and casually coming up with a thirty-point itemized list of SOME of what my life partner does to me, I really don't think I have anything to worry about, because I have faith in the American justice system to provide justice for, not a victim, but me who was victimized and still fights the best he can despite what the military industrial complex is doing because I told my ROTC cadre that my sister got me pregnant.
And this is where I have some difficulties mustering sensibility and things most people would call "common sense," because most people have not been MKULTRA'd to be trained as a skilled, highly neurodivergent writer to report on what Big Brother does to me because y'all asses are prejudiced and you don't understand that I am a "crackhead," which is different than a "pothead," which is a festival cop.
Verisimilitude. Yea, I mean, you CAN'T tell on OBSERVATION becuz eye due dis an u prejewduce so you throw me away before you even consider the things I'm saying and this is the shit that pisses me off because before I was a skilled righter, I was not ABLE to communicate these ideas I have and the insane things I experience, and so I suffered at the hands of others who were just awful people, but truly it is attachment that is the root of all suffering.
I bet that one woman that cut me off is suffering in her house right now, pissed off about something on the news, and so I forgive her because she knows not what she does. We live in a society. Everything you put out impacts someone else. I pick up a lot of garbage. And a lotta the people throwing it out the car window think I'm a lower lifeform.
This is something they did in the cult/secret government reprogramming school; put me under fear in sudden jolting moments. It's similar to what Byoomth does with me *at times.* That's one of the bigger things that fucks with my head, in that it's not a set thing he's doing. It's modular, and has evolved through several epochs of manipulation.
I have NO IDEA what reality is, but after getting arrested and casually coming up with a thirty-point itemized list of SOME of what my life partner does to me, I really don't think I have anything to worry about, because I have faith in the American justice system to provide justice for, not a victim, but me who was victimized and still fights the best he can despite what the military industrial complex is doing because I told my ROTC cadre that my sister got me pregnant.
And this is where I have some difficulties mustering sensibility and things most people would call "common sense," because most people have not been MKULTRA'd to be trained as a skilled, highly neurodivergent writer to report on what Big Brother does to me because y'all asses are prejudiced and you don't understand that I am a "crackhead," which is different than a "pothead," which is a festival cop.
Verisimilitude. Yea, I mean, you CAN'T tell on OBSERVATION becuz eye due dis an u prejewduce so you throw me away before you even consider the things I'm saying and this is the shit that pisses me off because before I was a skilled righter, I was not ABLE to communicate these ideas I have and the insane things I experience, and so I suffered at the hands of others who were just awful people, but truly it is attachment that is the root of all suffering.
I bet that one woman that cut me off is suffering in her house right now, pissed off about something on the news, and so I forgive her because she knows not what she does. We live in a society. Everything you put out impacts someone else. I pick up a lot of garbage. And a lotta the people throwing it out the car window think I'm a lower lifeform.